Kentucky Wildcats defeated Baylor Bears by demolition to reach Final Four in Men’s NCAA tournament against I-64 foe to the west the Louisville Cardinals in the game that will decide which school will play for the Championship. The first meeting of the season was a battle of big plays and attrition as the Wildcats held on to defeat Cardinals in Lexington withstanding two 2nd half runs. Seeing these 2 schools fight for the right to reach Championship game feels so surreal for me as a sports fan and a man also.
I grew up as a Wildcat fan after the Christian Laettner shot to send his Duke Blue Devils to the Final Four and won Championship in 1992. I grew up watching these Wildcats become NBA players from the time Rick Pitino coached the team to Championship in 1996 up to Orlando “Tubby” Smith who coached team to Championship too in 1998 up to being fired in 2005.
Here are among the players I watched (gives a giveaway of how old I am)
1. Jamal Mashburn
2. Jamal Magloire
3. Ron Mercer
4. Antoine Walker
5. Nazr Muhammed
6. Tayshawn Prince
7. Keith Bogans
8. Chuck Hayes
9. Wayne Turner
I haven’t seen the Wildcats team this good since the days when the team was coached by Smith up to now by John Calipari. Calipari has done a wonderful job with recruiting players like Anthony Davis who was named 2012 Wayman Tisdale award winner, Damian Miller and player with senior leadership Terrance Jones to shape the younger players up. When I watch the Wildcats for the last 7 years since I left I sometimes wish I could be a Wildcat fan again but that window passed by 3 years ago. Why? Well it’s very simple reason…I messed up badly. I was introduced in late 2008to a woman who was a close friend of my older sister who was a few years removed from a messy divorce and thought that I could have been a good love relationship match even though she was 10 years older than me. Her father was a religious Wildcat freak of fan as I was.
I had so many thoughts trying to develop a love relationship that I shouldn’t have had, I felt feelings of guilt and finally being happy for once in my life regarding events like that were eating my head off like leeches trying to suck the blood out of Ryan Leaf’s throwing arm as any maturity I thought I had realizing three years now I lost any resemblance of maturity as there were events in time displaying maturity never crossed my mind. Having a classmate seeing you with your date just freaked me out to the point since I couldn’t date that classmate but I can mate with someone who was my age or younger. I was superficial too, being in love with ideas and loving any money I had would erase all of my ills and gain desired attention. Underlining problems regarding other women were taking center court as well. I still had a rewind tape of trying to develop a relationship similar to my ex girlfriend….why would I do that, I was still 18 in my mind but I was 24 years old then wanting things to be a perfect lob pass to Anthony Davis.
The cover up was so vast I used one of my crushes WNBA superstar Diana Taurasi to pretend that all of my feelings for my ex was gone, but I ended up living through the past as if it were happening right in front of me. The worst crush I ever had (for the readers who don’t know is) Miranda Cosgrove was taking shape after I stood her up on a date only a week after she changed her mind from breaking up with me. I used her to escape the sadness of that ansrutiating pain of failure but only made me look like a pedophile. It’s true my crush should have never happened but it did and it took me up to a month ago to final have the feelings regarding Miranda came to a boring end.
I placed myself on timetable since 2004 at that time to plan accordingly and find an Asian woman and not paying attention to the woman who was trying to give me the attention I was seeking always worrying about how I would be if the road was greener. I was a stubborn to understand the only way I can date an Asian woman is if I were tall, slim and have blond hair….a alary the size of Los Angeles would be the only way to satisfy their needs. Took me just 9 months ago to rid myself from having feelings for these women but reality came 3 years too late sad to say. I had conflicts from being moral…waiting for the right woman like religious people would do or have sex with a woman who didn’t feel the same way I do and hope she changes her mind…I should have picked that option looking back on this now. This is definitely so when I waited to be kissed and loved from my ex girlfriend who move from Louisville 2 years ago craving the love I should have tapped one year earlier.
Also at that time I was so focused on grades while I was flipping through in Gateway Community college and Northern Kentucky University respectfully that were sagging in my mind I thought of making 2 decisions, to stay with someone who cares about me even though my grades are not where I want them to be or let her go and have my grades rise and end up with nothing in return…obviously to most people reading post would pick option number one, but I chose option number 2 feeling like slime. I didn’t want to become a dead beat dad or a dad who had no interest in teaching a child what to do as I do not only because she was a single mom but the fact my father was never part of my life. I was also insecure about the actors, celebrities and how to accept my disability as is too as when I found out later these thoughts worn down my being to change myself as I always do when a woman tries to become intimate with me.
The passion I had regarding sports and Metro buses were weaning as the time management skills I never had worsened as I became mute at times wondering what should I do to keep her interested in me. The worst part was when I just couldn’t see myself as a friend that could become a boyfriend soon. I watched many romantic movies but I never saw myself as a leader or having an important role in the relationship had me feeling scared like Courage the Cowardly Dog. The feelings of failure was compounded after she met someone else who was a year younger than me and was going to have a baby with him only made me feel worst than I ever could…just like Tiger Woods who did his horrible business (more on him later) was all my fault and I have to eat it.
I took pictures of Metro bus not to long after I heard the news about her pregnancy right around the time Tiger got himself in trouble in November 2009 to deal with the pain…little did I know 3 years later now I’ve become a big shot killer doing that, along with my artwork, writing, photography and self worth has grown 100 fold like a 100 Grand candy bar. I only wished what I had that light come being with her and not be fueled by sadness and regret to wake me up…
For me as a sports fan watching the Wildcats verses Cardinals. The meetings I’ve watched over the last 3 years pales to compare the magnitude of the encounter to end the week. I can’t help thinking of what life could have been if I didn’t mess myself up 3 years ago I would have been a Wildcats fan again. Also makes me wonder what could have been if my ex girlfriend’s family situation was different 2 years ago I would have been a Cardinals fan. Regrets aside this matchup will be a great show for Kentucky fans and Louisville fans alike. I wouldn’t feel like I basically crashed my life in front of a tree like Tiger did too.
Speaking of crashing a car literally, Tiger ended his long drought to win the Arnold Palmer tournament at Bay Hill. Tiger winning for the first time since his infamous crash at his house on Thanksgiving morning in 2009 which lead to the details of his infidelities which were later confirmed. Tiger went on a downhill spiral for a long time from firing his as I did since my failures in 2009 to, but at least I didn’t became a bud of bad jokes not only from rivals on the golf course but the media world desecrated him as my mother kept asking me why did I messed things up so badly. If Tiger can rebound from his failures as a man, so will I and try to cheer for the winner for the battle of the commonwealth.
Champs defeated.
Maryland Lady Terrapins came from 18 points down in the 1st half to defeat NCAA Women’s defending champions Texas A&M Lady Aggies 81-74 to reach Elite 8.
Trip to Powell County, Kentucky
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| Photo from Red River Gorge for Geology class at this time 3 years ago. Also among first photos I took from my old Nokia phone too. |
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| Sorta coach 9057 in cold mid morning at Marburg Avenue cut-off. |
