I watched My Strange addiction involving Nathaniel from Arkansas who is in love with Chase. Chase isn’t a woman or a man but a car. I felt sorry for Nathaniel who opened up to his father about his love relationship with his car for 5 years. Nathaniel was becoming emotionally attached to his car to the point he would kiss Chase, caressing the hood and when driving to lookout in the city when he becomes sexually aroused he masturbates to his car on the driver’s seat.
His roommate Kim did a good job stressing to Nathaniel that she understands the relationship he has for Chase, but the world would look at him as a weird lonely person. Nathaniel did go to therapy as his father and Kim suggested but his feelings of love to his car only grew stronger after having to feel the pressure of letting go was too much for him.
I can relate to how Nathaniel feels about his car. I remember that feeling too when I saw Sorta coach bus 2130 looking so shiny and repainted in Metro’s new painting wrap in 2008. I didn’t have the nerve to kiss the bus, but just riding the bus worked for me until I sat on the bus. The engine to me whined like a woman who is screaming while having sexual intercourse as the roar of the engine felt like a woman vibrating having her hand feeling up on my penis as the urges to masturbate was taking over.
The feelings only worsened when a few minutes earlier I stumbled on an episode of “iCarly,” as I was beginning to be sexually arouse to the young start to be Miranda Cosgrove because she had dark hair, her cheekbones and reminded me of an old childhood friend who had the same smile as she did.
Unlike Nathaniel who is happy to be in love with his car, I wasn’t happy with that. Yes I’ve messed up relationship possibilities and hampered my growth but I learned to take on the problem regarding Sorta coach 2130 and Miranda Cosgrove in a constructive way. I tried to not think about it, didn’t work. Talking down saying nothing is a big deal, turns out to be a big deal. Yes I did have some signs of blue balls as 2130 was passing by yesterday, I did block out hearing the engine which help my restrain myself. The battle of putting my crush on 2130 and Miranda Cosgrove in perspective still continues. I wish Nathaniel luck with his love affair of his car Chase even though by what I saw he might not.
Sorta coach 2130 t Fairview Loop last Monday before Valentine's Day. The ride turned out to be my undoing. |
To finally deal with my crisis involving Sorta coach 2130 over the years and Miranda Cosgrove too I turned sadness into art. |
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